Haunted

Countless teary nights I've been through
Tired of holding the secret that no one cares about
With all of my strength keeping this feeling only for myself
Because I'm the thing that may not appear, yet hurt inside

I always get haunted by the idea that I'm worthless
I'm probably just like a bottle of cold water in a fridge
Which you just pick up when you're thirsty
And left when the wine is served and friends are around.

The fake smiles and brightless eyes have been the decoration of my face
Strong legs have been my only friend to keep moving
To kill the times and drain my energy
So no chance for the haunted night to torture me again
I wish I could fall asleep without thinking much
and wake up with the new sunrise.

The Coffee Shop

Spending sometimes in a coffee shop has been one of my "must do list" when I visit a new place. I think coffee shop always has a certain charm.

So many people enjoying the time here.
The lovers, friends, social groups, business partner, or even individuals.

The combination of the smells of coffee, the sound of the coffee machine and the classy and comforting background music becomes the addictive ingredient that you won't get when you make your own coffee at home. 

Can you also imagine what's in every individual's mind when he/she sits there? I'm always wondering about that, as well as, how many ideas have popped up through group discussion or individual's contemplation. How many deals have been agreed in a coffee shop? How many works have been done in a coffee shop? I believe there's always a philosophical reason behind a coffee shop. That's what make a coffee shop has its soul, I bet.  

I consider a coffee shop is a romantic place as well, either with your partner or just with your books. Even when you're broken hearted, just bring your books, your earphone, and order a warm mochaccino and sit there until you're tired and sleepy. 

See how magical a coffee shop is? I wish one day, I can have one!

Respect Yourself!

At the end of the day, you have to stand for yourself
You are the one who needs to respect yourself
Your brain, your heart, your body, your energy, your mind.

Sometimes you are fooled by temporary distractions.
It's true that at the end of the day, people just think about their own business.
You treat them as the priority, but you just a complementary for them.
You suddenly realize that the world is not fair and you have to deal with it.
You might get hurt, but you are grateful at the same time.
You choose to stay strong, keep your head up, walk away from them.

It's not about the right way and wrong way you've chosen.
It's about consequences. 
You've been through the wrong way and you decided to go back to that intersection. 
On your way, there are so many stumbling blocks and holes, but you decide to stand up on your feet. 
Again and again.
No matter how many times you fall off because you just want to respect yourself!

Ups and Downs

It's such a great feeling to see people that we haven't met for quite a while.

A lot of stories to share and proved that life is shifting.

Some people probably were in the bad circumstances when they met you for the first time but share a moving story in the future meeting. It convinces you to be grateful for where are you in now, know that everything will be better one day, and not to be arrogant if you are in a good life.

Investasi

Kata Mba Kendar, pergaulan itu adalah investasi. Kalau kita bergaul sama orang-orang yang membantu kita untuk mengeluarkan potensi maksimal diri kita, maka kita akan jadi orang yang luar biasa. Tapi, kalau kita bergaul dengan orang-orang yang cuma bikin kita stuck atau malah mundur, ya kedepannya jita akan begitu-begitu aja. So, invest your time with people who bring the best version of you. Begitu juga dalam mencari pasangan.

Hmm, di satu sisi aku setuju dengan apa yang Mba Kendar bilang. Tapi menurutku bukan berarti menghilangkan pergaulan sama sekali dengan orang yang ga punya jiwa yang sama. Siapa tahu mereka malah mendapat pandangan baru dari kita. Iya ngga sih?

Mungkin juga kita perlu batasan waktu. Kalau dalam waktu sekian lama tidak ada yang menjadi lebih baik, kenapa mesti dilanjutkan?

Waktu

Waktu...
Cepat sekali kamu berlalu...
Aku jadi malu
Seringkali muncul keluhku
Padahal sebenarnya ku tak tahu apa yang kutuju

Waktu...
Tak bisakah kau menunggu?
Ikut diam ketika aku termangu
Melihat hidup yang seru
juga melambat ketika kepalaku berseteru

Waktu, 
Tunggu aku...
Akan kuselesaikan satu persatu....

Lose

It's okay to lose.
Lose is not same as fail.

You've been a great role model.
You made mistake, yet you fixed it.

You are far from perfect, but you strive for the best.
You are sharp.
You are passionate.
You are fearless.
You are steady.

Thank you, dear you.
You win my heart!